What A Narsistic Grrl Would Say..

Building my wall…

to keep me away from the pain of the world

I cannot believe I kicked him out… I guess I’m relief that I sort out that matter…

I try not to like the things I can not have

why do we always fall for something that is unreachable for us?

kicking him out is kicking out disturbance in my life, keep my pond still and without ripples…

I guess that concludes the reason behind all of the things that happen in my life…

It’s not my luck to blame for what happened, but it was me… I am to blame for all this…

I should take risks… but I’m afraid to step into open water… I’m afraid to get hurt, lost and confused

It’s been a while since I decided to let him go, and I wouldn’t let him ruin my peace by come and charmed me over and over again

I don’t want to hate him, but I don’t want to be his friend also… at least not for now

it’s like chasing the wind that carries my dreams away…

i think i’m lost when I chase those dreams and  dont know how to return to reality

there are many things I thought could bring happiness to me, but each time I go pursuing it… it turns out to be not right

now when I decided to return to reality, i kept turning to the wrong turn. God… why isn’t there’s a clear direction in life? give a goddam road sign or something!!

no more hopes… please dont gimme more hopes.

I’m tired of chasing the wind